Do you feel tired all the time and don’t know why? Are you constantly asking yourself, “Why am I so tired?” You try to eat healthily, get enough sleep, and maybe even exercise (or not lol) but you still feel exhausted.
This is was me for 3+ years. “Tired” was my new name. All I wanted to do was take a nap. Every. Single. Day. Naps were my favorite. I tried everything to fix my fatigue problem but nothing seemed to help. After getting blood work done, I realized the issue wasn’t with my body. The exhaustion was stemming from another part of my life, my emotional life.
During this season I was very busy. I was working 40+ hours, going to school full time, and I was on a dance team. (Duh, that is why you were tired, Nellie.) Yes and no. This fatigue continued long after I graduated.
No matter how much rest I got, my soul felt TIRED. I felt drained emotionally. I felt burned out.
During this time I began to struggle with a lot of fear, more than I ever had. Most of my thought processes were about what people thought of me. I worried about doing good in school. I worried about my future. I worried about everything.
At that time I was not aware I even had a fear problem. It dressed itself up as STRESS.
In our society being “stressed” is so normal, even okay to a degree. We promote self-care as the fix for stress. Take a bubble bath! Go for a walk! Cut out the negative people! All these are great but they do not solve the root issues leaving us exhausted and burnt out.
The root is in our minds. The root is fear.
Fear of man.
Fear of failure.
Fear of rejection.
Fear of abandonment.
If we were honest, when we say we are stressed, what we are really saying is we are worried. We live in dread. We are afraid – afraid to fail, afraid to disappoint, afraid to upset, afraid of being rejected, or afraid of not measuring up.
It is draining the life out of us.
It is robbing us of abundant life.
That is the thing about fear, especially fear rooted in abuse or trauma, it takes every ounce of your strength. Fear twisted my perception of reality. It took my life, full of hope and promise, and gave me a lens of hopelessness and inadequacy.
Fear was stealing my joy, my personality and my purpose. This woman of fear I had become was not who God made me to be. Pleasing others was not my destiny. Living under fear’s control was not meant to be my portion.
The fear became so strong in my life that I developed that infamous word we all know so well: anxiety. There was a constant pain in my chest, the works.
One day I got fed up and decided I had to take my life back. I was tired of being tired. I was tired of being scared. My heart knew that I got myself into this mess by agreeing with fear. But what could get rid of my fear and this incessant need for security?
Love. Yes, it is love that puts our souls at ease. It allows us to rest, to dream. Love brings security but an atmosphere of fear will keep you on edge and unable to rest. 1 John 4:18 says,
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.1 John 4:18 ESV
God is love, perfect love. ( 1 John 4:8) Love is the opposite of fear.
Love says, “You are safe. You are protected. You are wanted. You are loved.” Fear tells you all these things are no longer true.
I had spent my days, led by this evil spirit, trying to prevent my worst fears from coming to pass. THEN I remembered that God has not given me a spirit of fear. He has designed me for love. (2 Timothy 1:7)
Listening to fear’s lies got me into this place so I knew that listening to God’s loving voice would get me out. Determined to get my peace and energy back, I went away for 9 months to Redding, California and attended Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry.
During this time I spent hours with God. I just let Him love on my heart. He began to speak to me about who I was and helped me uproot the lies with truth, that sets men free. Some days, I would just lay on my bed listening to soft worship music breathing in the stillness. Many times I would fall asleep and that was fine by Him. It was my season of restoration.
The wounds were healing, the fear was leaving and the rest was coming. It was filling my bones, widening my smile.
While I was there I built relationships with people who spoke life into me. They loved me unconditionally and accepted me as I was. They listened, they encouraged, but ultimately it was through encounters with Jesus that my world changed. I started asking God what HE said about me and it was AMAZING.
I started to believe God loved me unconditionally.
I started to have joy again.
The joy that came from receiving God’s beautiful love was giving me strength. My zest for life was returning and it was all because of LOVE, the love of Jesus Christ!
So if you are tired, burnt out from life, and needing a vacay, it may be time to enter into love. Invite God to come and breathe His life into you! Get alone in His presence and just be with Him. Through faith in Jesus, we have total access to God and to His rest. In His kindness He provided a way, to not just escape our fears but to be delivered from them. (Psalm 34:4)
In the book of Matthew, a promise is given by Jesus to all those who are STRESSED.
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.Matthew 11:28 NLT emphasis added
Reject the voice of fear. It is your enemy. Listen to the voice of your Father God! Leave it all in His capable hands. He loves you so much! He is with you. His name is Emmanuel – God with us! (Matthew 1:23) Our Creator is with us in every season of our lives and longs to breathe peace and joy into us. Only He can tell you who you are and give you peace. So receive!
Are you ready to stop asking, “Why am I so tired all the time?” Constant fatigue is not your lot in life. Jesus is waiting with love and a nap! His love, His presence is your ticket to rest. Enjoy beloved ❤